Hmmm, hard one, I just always have been, at least in this life. I don't know about past lives, so to speak. I know that I am by several reasons, I can literally smell the difference between a healthy individual and a sick one, whether that fact is obvious or not. My father was the same way as I am, only he had a coven. (Back in the 60's and 70's of course) I am extremely sensitive to sunlight, not that I burn or anything like that, just that sunlight is painful to my eyes, because of several secondary pupils inside my irises besides the main one that open and close. Sunlight seems almost painfully hot on my skin. I am alway hungry, and no food will satiate me. etc,etc. I guess that I am because I have always known that I was. How do you explain that? It is like describing color to someone that was born blind.

any kind of dead meat is just that, dead. teh blood is dead and carries no mana. Living blood is where it's at. I get sustenence from human energy, (energy vamp) but also, the river of life (the blood) is a good way to get mana and satisfy cravings. Even a little bit will help, as long as it is living blood. But never autofeed. Taking blood from yourself never stops the beast. Also, never bite. If someone get hurt (not to mention infection and that a bite does not heal right.) the authorities can identify teeth marks or injuries from dental records.  The urge to bite may be strong, but the best way is a hypodermic needle, (if you know how to use one) I will not explain another way of feeding, but it is purely sexual, if you get my drift. In that way, mana is built to the breaking point, then released and the cravings stop for a while. I know that that is disgusting to some, and potentially dangerous if the partner is not healthy. Get a willing donor, and reward them well, for they sustain you. Gifting is key, but never give money in return.  My sweet male therian was a willing healthy donor, and he loved my feedings. He often came to me, wanting to give me his blood. Others actually offered to open a vein for me. I had plenty of donors, but I could smell that not all were healthy. The hand is a good source, as the tiny network of veins bleeds well, and healing is fast. Never take from any artery, they could bleed to death. I hope that this helps. Oh by the way, therian blood is the tastiest.

Brava.

Congratulations on sounding like a role-playing game.

-Alexander du Galle

interesting im surprised alexander did not recognise that term it is well used even in the bible and other places.

I am aware of the definition of mana and its meanings, but the most common connotation is that of roleplaying games.  No serious witch that I have ever encountered has used the term mana, as its original meaning has all but faded.  And just for your information, mana mentioned in the bible does not refer to the magickal mana, but a type of food provided by god that was given to the Jews escaping Egypt under Moses.  There is a large difference.

-Alexander du Galle

I find it interesting you find most ideas that conflict your own to be insults.  Put a helmet on.

-Alexander